Went to the doctor today and learned that there is a a trial with a something called a MEK inhibitor that looks like it might be good for me. Currently my hospital is working on getting approved to run this trial, so I have to wait until summer, when my doctor thinks it will be ready for the “guinea pigs”. So until then I will be taking tomaxofin, a hormone inhibitor, yes breast cancer patients take this drug, and see if it shrinks my tumors. This is similar to what I did this past summer. I will get my IP port out in two weeks and then see my doctor in six weeks for a check up.
So in other words I get to be a “normal” person for the next couple of months, finish up school and wait to get in the MEK inhibitor trial. Which is great!
Now just to find an internship for the summer!
This Thursday will be my 5th treatment out of 6, which means the “end” is near with treatment. I say “end” because I think I will probably need more chemo, but what do I know, we will have to see what my CA-125 is and what the CT shows. I am doing pretty good, and other than pain can’t complain.
This treatment will be a little different because I will be doing it inpatient, instead of outpatient. I am doing it inpatient, because the last two times I got chemo after I finished the chemo and was just getting my fluids my palms and soles of my feet would start itching, benedryl helped, but when I got home my back and shoulders would itch. We don’t know if it is a pain medication reaction or the chemo or the trial drug, but since it is a Phase 1 trial they want me to be observed for 24 hours. So I will see my doctor Thursday morning and then go to onco gyn floor at the hospital and get my chemo there. So nothing really exciting, and probably will be really boring, but it is better to have it investigated and looked into rather than not do anything about it.
I will be sure to let you know how it goes, the only thing that might make it more interesting is the possible snow storm that may be making its way across the midwest, but we will see, come hell or high water I will have my treatment.
I can’t believe I haven’t written in a while, but I was looking and I really have slacked. And for that I apologize, but treatment, school, work, and all that jazz has got me pretty busy, and not really feeling like writing for fun. Anyway In late November I started my newest clinical trial, this trial involves me getting the trial drug and chemo in my peritoneum instead of systemically (through my bloodstream). 
I have chemo every three weeks and I have had four treatments. I have a port in my peritoneum which is how 2 plus liters of fluid go in, I am then in a good amount of pain, until I pee out the fluid. The first day I weighed myself and ended up gaining 6 pounds in one session, CRAZY. I will talk more about that some time, I haven’t lost my hair, which I didn’t think I would, but you never know. With this treatment I was able to finish my fall semester and I am already a month into my spring semester, which is my final semester. The chemo is doing some good, my CA-125 has gone down, and my last CT showed some shrinkage. I am only to do 6 total sessions, so I only have two more, but I don’t know if I will have the last one, depends on the CT. I also don’t think that will be the end of treatment, I may keep doing this some more or something else, but I won’t know for a month, so until then I just keep trucking on, and doing the best that I can.
FUCK you hot flashes! You are so damn annoying, why can’t you just leave me the fuck alone. I don’t want to be hot, I don’t want to be flush, I don’t want to break a sweat. Seriously, you were gone and now you are back and a giant pain in my ass. Really just leave me the fuck alone! I don’t want to medicate myself anymore, or buy a chillow, but if you don’t leave me alone, which I know you won’t, I will just have to do those things.
If I wanted to have a wave of heat I would stand near a hand dryer and wave my hands. But I don’t want that, I want to be cold, the same temperature, able to sleep with out having to “breathe” my way out of a hot flash.
So FUCK you surgical menopause. FUCK you chemo, and a REALLY BIG FUCK YOU to hot flashes.
For the second time I got the boot from a clinical trail because I had a CT a week ago and it showed growth. So no more CRAZY schedule, no more pissed of Jennifer, no more getting chemo on my birthday. Just detox.
Detox you ask? Yes, detox, really I just have to wait three weeks for the old stuff to get out of my system, before I can join another trial. So I am one week down and have two too go.
Whats the plan? Well I am waiting to get the old drugs out of me, and then I will see if I can get into a phase 1 clinical trial. It stinks that the mixologist keeps not giving me the right cocktail, but you know I am determined to keep trying different cocktails until the right one comes my way. Be that through a trial or just the fun old chemo by itself way. We will just have to wait and see.
This is another fun journey, where I accept that I will never be normal or get back to normal, instead I accept what has happened, and will keep going until my doctor says I have to stop. But that won’t be for awhile if I have my way! 
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